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Agyness Deyn - My Girl Crush.

Yummy.

I miss the rain. The crazy thunderstorms I used to ecounter when I was younger. The lightening and thunder leaving me running to my bed to hide under the covers as I listened to the pouring rain and fell asleep. The rain feels like a safety blanket over my body, covering me in some sort of natural security, my being unable to feel overwhelmed by the enormousness of the world. The wet, clean smell of rain soaking into the grass, the droplets dripping off the tips of leaves, the windows covered in by nature's paint. Rain is beautiful.

I missed taking photographs. I'm back in the game, baby.
Fuck you HSC, I'm still going to do what I love.

Red hair.

Found this poor little dear in my garden. Called his owner.
She picked him up and I got a few photographs out of it.

I want to sleep in one of these.

I really do have some of the most amazing friends.
Thankyou, for keeping me here.
Mental breakdown = over.

Sometimes I feel like I'm following in your footsteps...

Sometimes I really hate my mother.

Everybody, everybody just wanna fall in love.

I'm sorry.

I don't feel well tonight. Everything is getting to me. Getting to me in some magnified way. Things that didn't used to upset me do and problems I overcame are coming back again. When I go to therapy they tell me this is normal. To feel the way I do. To feel angry, depressed, impulsive, exhausted and completely anxious. I find myself not wanting to eat because everytime I do I feel sick. It doesn't feel right. I was okay. I was healing and I was starting to feel well. But now I feel like I've taken a huge step back. My body is overcome with emotion. Hands clammy, heart pounding, eyes tearing and nausea rising. I feel like this everday. Everyday at some point in time, I feel as though my life is over, there's nothing left, I've fucked up and there's nothing I can do to fix it. I hurt people, not just one. I hurt them and I didn't even realise what I was doing. I'm sorry. To everyone I ever hurt. I am. I am 100% fucking sorry. I never meant to hurt anyone. In fact, my nature is quite the opposite. I have a heart, I care more than most people ever would and I'm terrible unstable. Whenever I see you, I feel my body collapse and my heart beat just that little bit slower because I know you will never look at me the same way again. My anger is rising and I can feel myself losing control. I want to scream, kick, punch, tear, rip, smash... until I feel at peace. I can cry and cry and cry and drink and smoke and fuck and ignore it all, but when it comes down to it, it's always there, in the back of my mind.

When I was young, I always dreamt that I lived underwater. In a place a bit like this. Everything was calm, balanced and under control, there was no conflict or unecessary rushing of time. A minute felt like a minute and a year felt like a year. Time and space have become so blurred, so forgotten yet emphasised in the world we live in today. Nothing really is as it is. An hour can feel like a decade and a year can feel like a second.

multiverse

The theory of the multiverse says there are infinite parallel universes containing every possible situation possible that together comprise everything that physically exists: the entirety of space and time all forms of matter, energy and momentum, and the physical laws and constants that govern them.

"If you close your eyes you see darkness. But if you keep them closed for long enough... you'll see light."


I never really realized until now how unbelievably terrifyingly similar I am to Effy.

So unbelievably stressed.

But I have my friends and my lover.
So everything will be alright.

I want this.

One last thing before I shuffle off the planet, I will be the one to make you crawl.

I want. I want. I want.

I adore this photograph, so so much.

Homosexual.

1) Being gay is not natural. Real Americans always reject unnatural things like eyeglasses, polyester, and air conditioning.

2) Gay marriage will encourage people to be gay, in the same way that hanging around tall people will make you tall.

3) Legalizing gay marriage will open the door to all kinds of crazy behavior. People may even wish to marry their pets because a dog has legal standing and can sign a marriage contract.

4) Straight marriage has been around a long time and hasn’t changed at all; women are still property, blacks still can’t marry whites, and divorce is still illegal.

5) Straight marriage will be less meaningful if gay marriage were allowed; the sanctity of Britney Spears’ 55-hour just-for-fun marriage would be destroyed.

6) Straight marriages are valid because they produce children. Gay couples, infertile couples, and old people shouldn’t be allowed to marry because our orphanages aren’t full yet, and the world needs more children.

7) Obviously gay parents will raise gay children, since straight parents only raise straight children.

8) Gay marriage is not supported by religion. In a theocracy like ours, the values of one religion are imposed on the entire country. That’s why we have only one religion in America.

9) Children can never succeed without a male and a female role model at home. That’s why we as a society expressly forbid single parents to raise children.

10) Gay marriage will change the foundation of society; we could never adapt to new social norms, just like we haven’t adapted to cars, the service-sector economy, or longer life spans.

He never ever saw it coming at all
He never ever saw it coming at all
He never ever saw it coming at all

It's all right, it's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right

Hey, open wide, here comes original sin
Hey, open wide, here comes original sin
Hey, open wide, here comes original sin

It's all right, it's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all

Power to the people
We don't want it
We want pleasure
And the TVs try to rape us
And I guess that they're succeeding
Now we're going to these meetings
But we're not doing any meeting
And we're trying to be faithful
But we're cheating, cheating, cheating

Hey, open wide, here comes original sin
Hey, open wide, here comes original sin
Hey, open wide, here comes original sin

It's all right, it's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all

Power to the people
We don't want it
We want pleasure
And the TVs try to rape us
And I guess that they're succeeding
And we're going to these meetings
But we're not doing any meeting
And we're trying to be faithful
But we're cheating, cheating, cheating

I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved
I'm the hero of the story
Don't need to be saved

It's all right, it's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right
It's all right, it's all right, it's all right

No one's got it all
No one's got it all
No one's got it all.

2nd May.

Sitting on the back verandah today - first time in a long time. It's such a great place to take photographs during Autumn. Went to Ms Price's house with my drama group to work on our group project, we're performing a ten minute piece on internet dating. I'm psyched for performing it. It's the best part of school, aside from photography, which I also found out I'm coming first in the year for, hoorah. Went to the city with Julien and Paul yesterday and it was great. Bought a sweet jacket at the Surry Hills' markets for 15 bucks and got the necklace i'm wearing in the picture (it's of a camera). Now, I'm off to have a nanny nap. x