18th October 2009.

My laptop is still working, even after my mother spilt a whole bottle of water completely over the keyboard. Everything is working but the left shift key. It's starting to really bug me because i am not very used to using the right one and i keep writing 1 instead of ! and =9 instead of =(. It is the last day of the holidays and i have mixed feelings about going back to school. It'll be great to catch up with all my friends and to start the digital photography course but i'm finding it really hard to get up in the morning. Sometimes it can be difficult holding up my mask of happiness for such a long period of time. If there is one thing i really despise it is when people ask me if i'm okay. I hate that. I'm not really okay but i don't want to tell you every single time you ask me how i am going. Sure, i have my moments where i am very happy and content but it does fall back to my original state of depression once again, it doesn't take very long. I know what i need to make me completely happy, but i just can't have that right now or maybe even ever. I've always got my photography though. Basically, i'm just trying to take life a day at a time. On a side note, toasted sandwiches are REALLY NICE. Especially with melted cheese, mmm. My parents have decided to drag me out to lunch, to 'get me out in the sun for my much needed vitamin D'. I also have a shitload of reading to do for extension two tomorrow which i haven't started yet. It's probably around 3 hours reading. And i'm also trying to finish 'The Dice Man' before i have to start reading texts for school. It is an absolutely fascinating book, i reccommend it. Summer fruits are coming out now and boy am i happy about that. NECTARINEEE and MANGOEEEESSSSS =] Anyway. I'm going to lunch now. Ta ta.