Well i've had a few sleepless nights this past week. I end up dragging myself to school and half heartedly talking to people. I haven't really worked hard enough this week, i've just spent it drumming, singing, reading and going for pointless walks around where i live. There is this guy, he has OCD, i see him everytime i go for a walk and it is so horrible. You watch him walk, he takes three steps forward and two back.. constantly. If he goes past a telegraphy pole he has to touch it and walk to the left of it. I see him on the road and i get worried about him getting in an accident. He looks like einstein, crazy hair and all. I wish someone would take him for a walk, he seems awfully lonely. Right now i have a hideous amount of assignments due. Some are absolutely ridiculous too. We have one for english, it is due back on the 2nd day of Term One next year and techincally we aren't allowed to do work in the holidays so she's asking us to do it all in one day. NICE TRY MISS. I wrote some ideas for my extension two short story and handed it in and it turns out she wants me to make my main character addicted to laudanum and for the story to be a parallel narative. No idea why she wants my character to be a drug addict but hey, maybe she thinks im a natural at that type of thing. I can't blame her, most days i turn up looking/feeling like a zombie. I get my work done and get out of there. I'm trying to get out of the house as much as i can, it helps my mood. Tomorrow i'm going to go for a drive with Joe after school. Thursday i have a doctors appointment to get analyzed (joy) for special provisions for the HSC, friday i have extension two, Saturday i'm going to the beach and Sunday i am going to try and see Patrick for a while and catch up on all the work i should be doing. I am a busy bee right now. I reccommend everyone to try the new Special K with chocolately bits, seriously, that stuff is amazing. I have found my breakfast for at least the next year or so. Basically i am over everyone's bullshit and i'm just trying to get where i need to be and hold onto the people who are my real friends. Milly has grown up a lot these past few months. So long to all the people that make me feel like shit; you don't respect me and you aren't worth it.

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